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"its the thoughts that counts"

Oct 30, 2010 || 2:00 PM

Hello semuer nyer ! Skrg nie aku pat ruma baru bf . Dyer baru jek pindah smlm . So , smlm ferst nite pat sinie . Okehh laa . Bukan kirekan nite uh psl kter sumer tido pukol 6 pagy . haha . Seybok kemas2 psl ruma dha macam tongkang pecah ngn barang2 sumer . Lepas kemas2 dha clear kan bilek baru selesa nak tido . Bey by 11 am dha bangon . Sarapan . Prata liat ngn teh . haha . Macam maner tah tuh orang buat prata eyh sampai boley liat gytuh . Tutop kedai suda . haha ! Nanty petang skit ker malam nak pegi kenduri arwah with bf's family . Narie bf tak keje ^^, Aku dha laa tkde baju kurong . Haiyoo ~ tengok laa macam maner nanti . Alright , nak tengok aku diperlukan untok kemas2 tak . Toodles !

Oct 28, 2010 || 7:52 PM

I wanna send my deepest condolences to bf's family for the passing of his grand daddy . Be strong and don't be too sad . Hopefully , you all could take his passing with patience . Alright , so narie sepatot nyer aku pegy ruma bf and tolong2 mak dyer but tak jadi cause dapat berite sedey . Thats why tak datang laa confirm dorang busy nak settle2 kan bende2 tuh sumer . So tengok uh if bf's mummy need my help dhen i'll come =) Biaser laa kan narie tak pegy saner so stay ruma jek . No money malas nak go out . Borink . Hmms ~ Just a short update for now . My mind is blank . Ok , Byee !

Oct 27, 2010 || 9:10 PM

Sometimes i feel i don't fit to be in someone's life . I just don't know why . I feel like im not good enough for him . Yea , like the graphic above , I am nowhere near perfect . I've been keeping this to myself . I wanna voice out but im just lazy to argue cause nothing will work out when fire meets fire . So i guess i can only express my feelings in here . I get angry easily and that is my weakness cause we both are fire and when i gave in i feel restless as i can't vent my anger . And when i can't vent my anger i feel stress . I tried to be patient and stop thinking about negative things but i just can't . Maybe i need more time . Just a few days ago i saw something in his drawer and i got really upset . Its useless even if i argued cause i dislike it when people do things without sincerity . Well , maybe im not as good or as pretty as her or even as slim as her or maybe you are better off with someone like her . Well , MAYBE . Sometimes i dont feel you really love me whole heartedly . Both of us are hot-tempered but i tend to give in more cause i do not want to end up in a big fight or even worse than that . You get angry easily , even for a small little thing like the incident the other day and i REALLY hate it . Im sorry for posting this way . I know i make you sound so bad . He is not that bad ok readers . Dont get me wrong . He can be really sweet at times . I love you bby that is why i wanna pass this message across to you but i just dont know why i cant say it in words . If i dont love you , its been a long time already i'd left you but i still hold on cause i love you and i know you can make me happy but .. maybe its not the time yet . I suck when it comes to explaining so i hope you'll understand more by what im posting here . I really wanna see you change for the better . Please baby , change the way you think .

Labels: Imperfections

|| 1:42 AM

Hello all . At last aku balek ruma narie setelah tige hari tk jumper mama aku . haha . Kesian dyer sorang jek biler aku tkder . Dha tige malam dekat ruma bf . Tolong2 dorang pack2 sumer . Tolong laa aper yang patot kan . hahas . Nie skarang nga tunggu mama balek from work . Conferm dyer cakap " tawu pon nak balek . pkir dha lupe aku " Mak aku nie mcm budak kecik jugak kadang2 suke merajok . haha ! So , nothing special to update acteli . Pat saner , setakat tolong2 jek tapy ade bende2 kelaka jugak biler nga angkat2 barang ngn bf's mummy . Kekek tol uh teringat balek . haha . Besok plak enta eyh nak kelua ker tak . Bf keje . Tengok uh aper plan yang ade . Hmms ~ Dha laa malas nak type panjang2 . Penat . Proper post soon kays . Skarang nie aku nak tengok tvee . Bye korangs !

Oct 24, 2010 || 6:05 AM

Morning people ! Its already 5.52 am in the morning and im still not asleep . I dont know why i just cant get to sleep . There are many thoughts running thru my mind . hmms . The thing is , i dont feel sleepy at all . Well lets talk about yesterday . Started my day with anger . Woke up from sleep , someone already made me angry and it dragged till afternoon . Ok skip that . Yesterday didnt have any plans so i went to bf's house around 6.30 . Dhen by 7.30 bf's mummy and me went out to fetch his daddy from sim lim . Went to a few places dhen off home . Went to bf's house but didnt get to meet him until night time after midnight cause he's working while im out with his parents . He reached home around 10 but his parents still had some places to go so bf had to wait at home alone . Kesian bby gemok aku . haha ! And now he is beside me snoring away like a pig while im blogging . Later he's going off to work by 11 . Gonna be alone again =( But nevermind , i'll be helping his mummy with the packings and maybe wait for him till he finishes his work . Im sucha sweet gf right ? i knowwwww ~ hahaha . prasan eyh . alright people ! wanna try sleeping or i'll end up bangon lambat nak tolong bf's mummy pack2 . Toodles =)

Oct 23, 2010 || 1:43 AM

ARGHHH ! Fed-up gyler weight dha naek ! Im so mad with myself for not controlling my consumption of junk foods recently . I really ate alot these few days . Especially sweet things and i always eat late dinner or supper . Makan plak fast food sumer . I dont know why my appetite is so damn biggg . Always hungry . urgh ! Slalu gynie , kalau tak keje , dudok ruma jek mesty badan naek . Pasal tkder keje kan , asek makan , makan , makan ! Macam taik . Sorry about this post , eu readers just have to bear with me for awhile . Im just mad at myself . Gonna try to go on a diet starting from now . For a start gonna restrict myself from eating when the clock strikes 10 . As tyme goes by i'll make it by 9 and the earliest is 8 pm . Hopefully i dont break my own rules . Preventing oneself from eating is f hard . Especially for me as im a chocolate lover . To those who know me , they should know . Im already fat enough and now im getting fatter . I really cannot take it . I dont wanna waste my youth wearing black everyday like what im doing now . Its pathetic right ? Trust me , i knowwww ~ But thats what im doing now . Im only confident wearing black . I feel that wearing other colours or light colours will show my fats . I wanna lose 7 kg . Oh god please help me control my hunger . I really , madly , deeply wanna slim down . Im so sick of my body now . I really wanna wear all those things that i couldnt fit into anymore like i used to =( Already started my diet and now im feeling hungry . Its like a routine i eat every night cause i always eat more during night time dhen daytime . I dont always feel hungry during daytime . MUST get use to it . Its for my own good . Alright , enough talk . Nak tahan perot nie . Mulot gatal jek nak makan . Sialan ~ Byee , no mood .

Oct 22, 2010 || 12:19 PM

Heyloo readers ! Didnt update for two days . The reason was , tkde time nak update . hehe . Sooo , like i said in my last post , i went to mit ika and we went to changi with fiq and bf .

Had our nasik lemak and ika's fave otak2 shop was closed
Dudok2 kejap lepas makan then we bought some tidbits
Lepas tuh teros naek cab and proceed to fiq's house
Sampai sane , jumpe yan ngn rasul
Ton ruma fiq , movie marathon ngn dorang . Watched Piranha , Tekken and The real pocong
Didnt sleep the whole night . Pukol 5 lebey yan ngn rasul balek . Dhen around 6 plus ordered Mac to have our breakfast
By 8 plus , kelua . Ika , fiq , bf and me naek bus to CP .
Gy banquet , minom air , bobal2 . At ferst sumer ngantok nak balek mcm maner tah sumer boley dudok2 dulu . haha .
By 9.30 took the train all the way to boon lay from sengkang . Jaohh ~
Ika ngn fiq plak tak tawu nak pegi mane so they went back to fiq's house
Reached boon lay took bus to bf's house
Sampai , wash up teros tdo dhen woke up around 2.30 . Bf pegi keje
Kak ida and kyra came . Went to bf's granny house
Went S11 to have our late lunch
Lepas makan , separate with zack as he have deliveries to be done
Lepas tuh pegi taman jurong , house viewing and confirm the house
Balek ruma bf , lepak2 sane , layan kyra until bf balek from work
At 11 pm , bf and his mummy sent me home .
Reached home around 11.30 , wash up , on the phone with bf dhen teros tdo . Ngantok nak mampos cause tak tdo biler dkt ruma fiq and dapat tdo braper jam jek dekat ruma bf .

Alright , so dats what i did on Wed (20/10) to Thurs (21/10)

Malas nk elaborate soo in point form jek laa . hehes . Sadly , no pictures taken . But takpe laa kan , laen kali ader =) As for today , maybe im staying home . Tengok laa kalau ade plan nanti baru kelua . Perot pon dha berbunyik nie . Nak makannnnnn ! hahas . Byeeeeeee !

Oct 20, 2010 || 4:31 PM

Selamat petang semuer nyerrrrrrrrrrrrr ! Currently nga mkn cereal , talking on the phone while blogging . haha . wow , multi-task eyh . Thats what boys cant do . Missing this bitch . See her picture below .

Introducing .... Syaiqa ! hahas .

Meeting her later . Going changi . Maybe ton-ning with her since dha lamer tak jumper . Alright , nak mandy dhen siap2 . Have a nice day people !

Oct 19, 2010 || 9:55 PM

Had a tiring day today . Pukol 7 pagy dha bangon padahal tdo pukol 5.45 . Mandy , siap2 nak pegi appointment . Bf irritating nak mampos . Punyer laa susa dyer nak angkat pantat dyer yg tepos tuh nak pegy mandy . hahah ! Conferm mara aku panggil dyer tepos . Dhen by 8.30 dha kelua . Lenggang lenggok jalan , lambat2 kan tyme psl bf blom siap . Took bus to interchange dhen took the train and waited for bf at city hall platform for 20 minutes . hmph . Dyer dtg jek proceed to novena cause from there ader shuttle bus to NSC . End up naek bus biase tak naek shuttle bus pon . Maner tah shuttle bus dyer dha laa lambat utk appointment . Patot nyer appointment kol 0940 tapy kter sampai 1030 . Nie sumer bf nyer pasal . hahas . Sampai saner tgk tak banyak org tapy punyer laa lmbt nak tunggu aku nyer turn . Kter dha mcm org paling biseng dkt situ ketawe2 cause orang yg masok bilek doctor most of them tak kelua balek dhen tibe2 next patient . Bey bf takot nak masok . HAHA ! Gedebak gedebuk amek obat sumer by the tyme dha pukol satu . Went for our lunch at novena square . Had my grilled fish at long john silver ! sedap =) Lepas mkn naek train pegy wdls bey bf pegy keje . Went to my grandma's house to celebrate my aunt's burfday . Kesian aku tgk dyer tkder org nak celebrate burfday dyer as she has no children . So , every year she depends on me . Drop off at wdls while bf continue his journey to jrg east . Went to causeway point to buy a burfday cake . Walked around a while and saw tops on sale . Bought one for my aunt as a burfday gift . After buying all the stuffs , walked to her house which is quite near from the interchange . So , below are some pics of her . Dyer dha tak saba nak tiop lilin ngn makan cake so i only snap a few pictures .

Aunt and grandma <3

After the small celebration , i went to sleep . Woke up , chit-chat with grandma and aunt dhen pukol 7 gytuh gerak nak balek . Reached home around 8 and now blogging while watching tvee . Alrightyyy , enough blabbering for now . hehe . Byeeeeeeee ~

Labels: Happy 53rd cikna =)

|| 12:24 AM

Aww .. How sweet ryte ? How i wish i could get a long lasting and loving r'ship for once . Hopefully my ass bf now could understand me way better than my ex(s) did . haha . For me , i've always had endless problems from my past r'ships . The common problems , be it the third party or the lust thingy always and i mean ALWAYS end with a separation . I just dont understand why guys nowadays need lust to make the r'ship ongoing . I always find that guys who do not get what they desire from his gf , will end up flirting . Do not say about one year it is already hard enough to make it last for half a year nowadays . Its like a trend now to have intimate r'ships with your partners . Well , hope i dont get influence . Cause its really hard when everybody around you is like that . No offence to those guys who only interested in pure love =) By the way , what im posting here is just a general talk . Random . Im not referring to anybody . Hmms , alright skip that so today is a stay home monday . Super bored . Been eating the whole day . Cereal , mini pancakes , honey chicken and epok-epok . Gonna grow fatter in no time . haha . As for tomorrow i've an appointment regarding my oily scalp . Need to get some treatment before it gets worse . And the appointment is f early but nevermind bf will be accompanying me =) Money spent but no money earned as i still havent got myself a job till today . Haiyaa ~ Bf already started working in his new shop . He'll be f busy for sure . Only one day off in a week . Urgh ! Will be spending lesser time together . I need to get a job so that i wont be bored when he's not free to entertain me . Retail job anbody ? Please help me out . Been finding for a retail job for months since i left isetan . Its frustating . Alright , wanna listen to mj12 . Goodnight world !

Oct 18, 2010 || 4:34 AM

Heylooo readers ! Didnt get a chance to update yesterday . Slept over bf's house . Tak tawu aper jady ngn computer dyer so tak online dhen just layan bf sampai tertdo . Sooo , tadie petang went to taman jurong with bf and his mummy plus zack's family . House viewing . Lepas tuh go boon lay and the damn office was closed . Went to geylang to have our meal . Orang jurong , jaoh2 datang geylang stakat nak makan soto ayam ngn rojak . haha ! Cause zack cakap rojak dyer power gyler . After that , went back to taman jurong to send zack's daughter for her bbq pit . Then proceed to sim lim to buy some stuffs . Lepas sim lim plak gy cash converter dhen jurong west . Narie pegi banyak tempat . Sampai pening aku naek , turon kereta . Banyak patah-balek2 tempat ! haha . Tak tawu laa kalau nie pon in correct order . Got all mixed up . With lots of places to go and errands to be done I had a fight with my ass bf . He really pissed me off just now .

To you dear if ure reading this : I dont like to be treated that way . Im not yr friend . Eu should respect me as yr gf . Eu think u're a hooligan wanna act that way ? Kalau i bbl mcm gytuh pat eu , eu suker ker ? Mesty tak kan . Flash it back okehh aper tadie yg terjadi . I diam , dha okehh tak semesti nyer i betol2 okehh . I pendam jek dalam hati . Takmo salah faham asl i letak nie sumer pat blog . Im just expressing bukan niat nak burok-burokkan mataer sendiri . Kalau i betol2 nak burok-burok kn eu i dha cerite dari A smpai Z pat sinie . I cumer nak eu pkir jek betol2 psl tadie and i seriously tak suker prangai eu . I hope eu understand . Anyway , i still love eu bitch . Muacks .

Oct 16, 2010 || 2:03 AM

Okehh , timecheck 1.50 am . Currently listening to mj12 . Mendak . Mummy keluar and bf maseh busy soo dyer tak boley teman aku thru the phone . hahas .

Lets recap what i did today . Went on a date with my mummy . Didnt spend much time with her as she is a working woman . So , since its her off day today , decided to spend some time with her . Plan nak tgk movie but atlast mummy change the plan . Dyer nak jalan2 jek . We went to century square after that tamp mall . Window-shopped , ate and have a long talk . About family and stuffs . Im extremely furious after listening to all my mummy's problems because of some inconsiderate people . Harap jek adek beradek tapi tak gune . Skip that , didnt snap a lot of photos recently . Well actually i dont really like taking pictures . hee . So , here's a picture of me and mummy ,

Okehh dear readers ( if i have one ) haha ! , selamat malam ! =)

Oct 15, 2010 || 5:28 AM

Its 5 am . Bf conferm membebel pat aku pasal aku blom tdo . Didnt plan to update my bloggy tonight actually as i was sleepy earlier on . Smpai ruma , wash up , check facebook ngn tagged lepas tuh off my lappy , planning to sleep . Bareng-bareng sambil bbl ngn bf smpai laa dyer tertdo pon aku lom tdo2 . Dhen watched tvee . Suddenly , i felt breathless . I think my sickness is coming back . Memang laa dary dulu ader dis breathing problem but its getting worse . I can feel it . Nga bareng tibe2 rase tak boley breathe . Padahal nga relax bkn nyer tgh lari . Panick kejap tros bangon carik air . Minom air , ddk tarik nafas panjang baru okehh sikit . Stress uh gynie . Kene gytuh tros ngantok hilang tuh pasal laa update blog nie . hehe . Bf sleeping soundly already . Wait till he reads my blog tomorrow , he will surely nag at me . Gonna take a rest now . Good morning people !

Oct 14, 2010 || 1:44 AM

Reached home around 12.20 . Met ina just now . This time , she was late . haha . Its ok cause selalu nyer aku yg lambat . Went to paya lebar and ina bought herself some clothes from this fashion . Then , i was craving for my cheesecake so we went to coffee bean . Ate , do some cathing ups . Around 10.45 we made a move and proceed to bedok to have our supper as ina was hungry . Sampai bedok , gy teh tarik . We ordered chicken chops . Sampai senak aku mkn . Padahal tk lapar sangat cume nk teman kan sih gyler tuh jek . hehes . Mkn , bobal2 , gossip , ketawe rabak lepas tuh balek . Walked home sambil msg2 bby gemok . haha . Alright , shall stop here for now . Bf dha call . Will try to sleep early today as i have job interviews tomorrow . urgh . interview , interview , interview . keje nyer tk dpt2 . Kay laa , ckp psl keje tros tkder mood . Nights .

Oct 13, 2010 || 6:36 PM

As always , plan to go job hunting cancelled . bleargh ! But tadie ader beli straits times and calling2 them for an interview . Tomorrow i have 4 job interviews . Mane yg sempat pegi laa cause ader time clash . Pray hard for me so that i will get a job soon =) Soo , today no plan . Been eating since just now . haha . Gynie laa kalau ddk ruma , mulot tak brenti mengunyah . hmms . Will be meeting ina later to prevent myself from eating . haha ! Going to buy some stuffs lepas tuh nak pegi pasar malam . cempedak gorenggggggg ~ yes uh ! haha . Kay , less than 1 hour to get ready . Ina will freaking nag at me if im late . Nak gy siap nie . Toodles =)

|| 3:06 AM

Still awake and now its 2.57 am . Splitting headache . urgh ! Since i cant get to sleep , why not update my blog kn . Thinking of finding a job tomorrow but nobody to accompany me . Everybody seems busy . Haiyaa ~ Hopefully bby is free to teman me . Need a job real soon . Its been countless times since i've said this tapi keje nyer blom dpt2 . Stresssssssssss ~ I wanna shop . I seems to be running out of clothes . hahas . Currently otf-ing with bby . Dyer tgh maen guitar nyanyi2 . Dyer berjiwang while im blogging . hahas . Okehh laa sampai disini dulu yer . My headache is getting on my nerves . Sweet dreams =)

Oct 12, 2010 || 1:20 AM

Hey readers ! If i have one . pathetic tol uh blog aku , tkder pape . tkper laa eyh . pelan2 kayoh . hahas . Soo , just got back home . Super full . Mcm nk meletop perot aku nie . Tadie mkn seafoodddddd ~ Be jealous ! haha . Yesterday slept over bby's house again . Mcm tkde keje kn muker aku asek pat ruma dyer jek . Tuh laa keje aku selagi blom dpt keje . Woke up around noon today . Went for lunch padahal blom mandy . haha ! Balek ruma kelam kabot siap sampai tak sempat sikat rambot tros kua naek cab gy sim lim dhen amk . Bf's dad jumper kwn dyer . Lepas tuh went back home . Lepak2 pat ruma bf smpai mlm . Around 1030 gytuh kua go east coast lagoon tuh have our seafood , dats the reason why my perot super boncet skrg nie . Dah kenyang tros balek ruma . Now blogging sambil dgr mj12 . hee . So below are some pics of me and bby .

Bby brangan . hehe .

Kuang aja tol . Org tertdo pat dlm train bey amek gmbr .

Im short and fat ! urgh !

Alright , thats all for tonight . Nk maen game =) Malam !

Oct 10, 2010 || 5:00 PM

Pheww ~ tired . Just got back from jempotan . Okehh about yesterday i lied . hahas . I said i wanna update when i reached home but i didnt . Lazyyyy ~ Alright lets talk about just now . First thing in the morning when i opened up my eyes , i heard mum shouting asking me to get ready . As always , mak aku slalu kanchong . Mls aku nk lyn dyer . Slept back and woke up at 9.45 . Get myself ready . By 11.10 kter dha kua . Yg laen lambat so mummy , aunt , kak ina and myself took the cab to masjid sultan untuk majlis akad nikah . Sampai sane jek dha start doa2 . Sat there , bacer doa , took pictures . Lepas akad nikah we went to tepak sireh untuk majlis persandingan plak which is only a walking distance . Sampai sane tros carik mkn . hehe . Ate , sembang2 sementare tunggu pengantin dtg . Around 2 pm the bride and groom arrived . Watched the tarian and adr gamelan jgk . Took pictures again , kiss2 , hug2 pengantin and off homeeee . hahas . Supposed to go mustafa after that with the others but mum tanak . Mcm org gyler jek gy mustafa ngn kebaye ngn heels sume . tak kuase akuuu ~ haha ! So , below are some of the pics . Tak banyak as the other pics sume dkt camera yg laen . Maklom lah hp kter nie tak canggih kn . haha .

HAHAHA !

The bride and groom . Kak Aisyah looks gorgeous ! =)

Labels: Kak Aisyah's wedding .

Oct 9, 2010 || 10:04 PM

Timecheck : 9.56 pm . Currently at bby's house . Watching him anu tanaman dyer pat luar ruma . Feelink2 pat kampong plak . Haha . Bf look so cute gytuh . Going home soon . Tomorrow ader jempotan . Haiyaa ~ never liked going jempotan dary dulu . Naseb baek sdare dekat . Alright , till here ferst . Leceh tol uh update pakai nie bende . Gonna update again later when i reach home . Bye for now :)

|| 1:19 AM

Got home around 1230 just now . Slept over bby's house yesterday . Tadi bf balek keje siang so he spent more tyme with me =) Didnt do much today . Cume gy gek poh mkn jek dhen stay home . Planned to go out tomorrow . Underwater world , dolphin lagoon and seafood ! But sadly , i think i cant go cause i've to attend my cousin's wedding . urgh ! irritaing . Hopefully my mummy let me go tomorrow , if she's in a good mood . If not , i've to tolong2 kat sane . taikkk ~ Stop here for now . Wanna call bf and watch tvee . Goodnight world ! Sugar dreams =)

Oct 6, 2010 || 4:05 PM

Afternooooooon ! wow , had a tough time using blogger . All the editing and stuffs . haha . Atlast , finish with all the designs and templates . Look simple and so girly gytuh . hee . Biarkan laa gytuh untuk sementare . Penat plak godeh2 nie bende . Will change to a new skin soon . Sooooo , today is a stay home day since there's no plans . F bored cos there's nothing to do . haiyaa ~ wo mei yo cian uh cannot go shopping , so have to stay at home . Kalau keluar pon boring . Okeh , nak pergi carik cerite bagos2 . Nak melayan diri sendiri dulu since tkde orang nk layan aku . haha ! Byeee .

|| 12:12 AM

Hey . new to blogger . since im bored tried making one . hehe . its my first post . just a short one will do . no one is reading anyway . hahas . alright , i wanna explore blogger first . goodnight diary =)

Labels: beginner